Richard e Hill - a Writer's Journal



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“A womb.” That was my answer to the question “Where were you born?” posed by a border inspector, who I had seen many times when entering the USA en route to San Diego. Instead of admonishing me, he laughed and asked, “How’s the writing going?” What makes this brief cordial exchange notable is, these were the first words I had spoken in ten days. I suffer from Dysthymia, depression in common vernacular. I used to say that “I was reclusive”, “a loner”, “shy”, or “just like to keep to myself sometimes”, but I believe that depression, like any other affliction should be confronted to be managed. My affliction is not a result of the transition from the dynamic worlds of the military, information technology, and consulting to the relative tranquility of writing. Depression has been a constant brooding shadow that I neither take nor consider taking prescription medication to manage. Hereditary? Possibly, as well as sociological influences exacerbated by traumatic incidents with multiple concussions.
How does one spend ten days without speaking when living in a city of two million with affable neighbors? The first five days were spent indoors during the cold, drizzly, rainy season in Tijuana, an otherwise dry semi-tropical locale where a temperature less than 60 is considered to be cold by the inhabitants. Agoraphobic? No! Home Internet access was a source of irritation as well because of an ongoing conflict with the then Internet Service Provider, service being the operative word. Attempts to implement a wireless system thru two of the major providers had been fruitless, nearly resulting in legal redress. If I were not already depressed, I would have been after these encounters. I will have to upgrade or replace my laptop to implement a perpetual wireless system. Meanwhile, I use Internet cafes or the public library in San Ysidro, a Wi Fi hotspot. I made three trips to San Diego over the next six days; coincidentally the border inspectors were handling more pressing issues; so my identification was accepted without a minimal challenge. Of course on the third trip I was asked the obligatory, “Where were you born?”
 Depression should not be minimized. The so-called cures that I had used in more dynamic social environs including, “hanging out in Jazz clubs”, “cigars and cognac”, “meditating/brooding”, “isolation” are not effective, generally. Listening to “the troubles” of others, though often laborious; somehow worked for me, even when I was depressed --- go figure! Exercise and proper diet are essential.

 Hopefully, my next eMail will not be so depressing; the subjects: Eliminate Black History Month and Alter Martin Luther King Jr. Day.

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Web MD provided:

What Is Dysthymia?
Dysthymia, sometimes referred to as chronic depression, is a less severe form of depression but the depression symptoms linger for a long period of time, perhaps years. Those who suffer from Dysthymia are usually able to function adequately, but seem consistently unhappy.
It is common for a person with dysthymia to also experience major depression at the same time - swinging into a major depressive episode and then back to a more mild state of dysthymia. This is called double depression.
   Symptoms of Dysthymia Are the Same as Those of Major Depression and Include:
    Difficulty sleeping
    Loss of interest or the ability to enjoy oneself
    Excessive feelings of guilt or worthlessness
    Loss of energy or fatigue
    Difficulty concentrating, thinking or making decisions
    Changes in appetite
    Observable mental and physical sluggishness
    Thoughts of death or suicide

Who Experiences Dysthymia?
According to the National Institute of Mental Health, approximately 10.9 million Americans aged 18 and older are affected by dysthymia.>How Is

Dysthymia Diagnosed?
If you are depressed and have had symptoms for more than two weeks, see your doctor or a psychiatrist. Your provider will perform a thorough medical evaluation, paying particular attention to your personal and family psychiatric history.
There is no blood, X-ray or other laboratory test that can be used to diagnose dysthymia.
A mental health specialist generally makes the diagnosis based on the person's symptoms. In the case of dysthymia, these symptoms will have lasted for longer and be less severe than in patients with major depression.
What Treatments Are Available for Dysthymia?
Dysthymia is a serious but treatable illness. Some people with Dysthymia may do well with psychotherapy or "talk" therapy alone. But in some cases that is not adequate and your doctor may prescribe antidepressant medication as well.

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